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[Apr. 25th, 2011|02:18 pm] |
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I'm definitely not in the best of moods today. First Art, then band. Right now, I don't have this much energy to be able to complete everything and manage my time so perfectly well which may be well be the damned reason why I am currently studying in Tampines Junior College instead of RI or ACSI or whatever prestigious school there is. I don't really care if I'm stereotyping or whatsoever but right now, at this instant moment, there is a NEED for me to vent out all my frustrations and pissed-off-ness. But seriously, besides the fact that they're there because they've been there since eternity (eg: pri to second to jc), there's got to be other reasons why they manage to keep up the competition all these years right?! But that's none of my concern right now.
I am not falling behind my schoolwork, that's true. But I don't exactly understand every detail that's being taught in school. I'm tired, weary, and sick and tired of this whole notion of wake up-> school> band> do work or sometimes I don't even have the enrgy to -> sleep -> wake up -> school. And the cycle repeats. I sure, like more than a hundred percent sure I'm not the only one going thru this, feeling this way. But everyone has a limit. Don't they? And perhaps my threshold for this whole routine is only up to this level. I'm being led on to higher, and more challenging levels than they already are. (Weird sentence structure, I know)
I refuse to be superficial. I refuse to be be weak. I refuse to be a bitch. I refuse to be everything that I am now. So Lord, lead me back to the cross. So that only thing I will feel, is You. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2011|10:26 pm] |
To put it simply, I'm jealous and envious of the people who have good language, speaks well and carries themselves well. I am nothing like that, nothing as compared to them. When I read some people's blogs, this particular tinge of envy, in hope that I could one day become a good writer and speaker too. But this dream seems so distant.
This is the time of need.
This is the time for favour.
This is the time God steps into my life and says,
'Hey my beloved, I am here for you.
In all the times of your need.
I'd do anything for you,
Simply because,
I love you.'
*heart stills* I've finally landed in serenity. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2011|03:10 pm] |
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If you're one of my twitter followers, I'm sure you can tell how freaked out I was awhile ago for Math SA1 cuz I was totally running out of time to study. But I'm in need of a break now so here I am! :) thank you God for friends who are here for me!! :) hehehe a gift sent from your hands :) love you God, but can never surpass your love for me :) here's a big fat wet kiss for you: MUAAAAAAAACKXXXXXZZZZSSSS! :) |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2011|09:55 pm] |
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feeling like crap now bcuz of the things i know and the things i've gone through/experienced. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2011|04:01 pm] |
There seems to be more time now as compared to the past one and a half months, and that's because CA1 just flew by and the teachers were giving us time to prepare for it. But I blew it in the end. So, what's the point. With the 'more' time I have in my hands, I should really use it to study but I have been spending the time lazing around, doing nothing. I need discipline. Need need NEED.
Been feeling pretty lost this week. Not in terms of schoolwork, but spiritually ans stuff. I'm losing believe, while I am learning to at the same time. If believing's an object, I'd gladly pay the highest price the world can ever charge, take it and keep it with me, so safe that it'll finally be a part of me on that fateful day.
Maybe that's the reason why believing doesn't have a price. It'll lose its meaning.
A Levels ends on 23rd November. Three weeks. And three papers straight on the last three days. It's March now. What have I done so far?
God, where are you? |
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[Feb. 16th, 2011|06:48 pm] |
Just totally realised that my posts are filled with mostly school updates but heck. I mean, my life practically REVOLVES around school! Not on the weekends though.
Tests aren't going well. God, help me. Why am I still typing in this little box? CUZ I AM PROCRASTINATING.
Here's what went on for Vday :) We went for dinner :) |
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[Feb. 13th, 2011|09:11 pm] |
should i play monopoly with my cousins or post my thoughts in this little box or study for my CA1 which is tmr. And guess what, my SOVA notes are not even with me and I'm highly unlikely to be able to see poopy for V. Day tmr cuz school ends at FREAKING NINE for me.
Anyhow, I am a happy girl (insert other vocabulary that describes happiness) because I bought a jacket that poopy really likes. It's my 2 weeks allowance but it's really worth it to see his face lit up with excitement and happiness! :D heheheehheehehehe
Okay I'm going to play monopoly with my cousins so see you guys around! |
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[Feb. 5th, 2011|05:58 pm] |
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I AM SO BLOODY ANNOYED WITH LIT |
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